I can’t do this anymore.
We’ve been together for years, and I have loved you more than you could ever comprehend.
But I now realize that our relationship has been toxic from the get-go, and I don’t see any signs of it changing anytime soon.
You have a dark side which cannot be ignored, and it’s time I call you out on it…
First of all, you’re insidious. You may distract me (and countless others) with your sweet exterior, but at your core you are poison.
Second, I find myself strangely addicted to you, like a drug. Just thinking about you makes my endorphins go wild. And like a drug, once I’ve had a taste of you, I can’t get enough, I need more and more. I lose self-control. It’s unhealthy, to say the least.
Third, even though I try to stay away, you are almost unavoidable. You seem to be everywhere I go, whether it’s my parents’ house, a grocery store, a gas station, even at my therapist’s office.
Bottom line: you are a Siren. You call to me with promises of joy and happiness, and in the end you deliver nothing but sabotage and pain.
But no more.
This letter is my way of tying myself to the masthead, to hear your call and be able to ignore it, to sail on. Because every single time I come back to you, even if it’s just one day, you let me down.
I want everyone to know your true nature so that when they see me with you, they’ll knock me back to my senses. They’ll speak up, knowing that by being with you I am doing myself actual harm, not just psychological harm, but emotional harm and (especially) physical harm, too.
The real problem here is that you’re always going to be a part of my life, and I don’t foresee anything that will change that fact. At Thanksgiving and Christmas, you’ll be there. At birthday parties, you’ll be there. At family reunions, friendly get-togethers, and more, you’ll be there. Even if I don’t want you there, someone is going to bring you around. It never fails.
You’ve got a lot of fans, to be sure, and there’s no way they are going to shut you out just because of the way I feel about you; they love you, and they don’t see you the way I do, because to do so would require such a radical shift in their lives that it would be too painful to change, even though you are already causing them untold pain and suffering, a certain amount of which they are aware.
But no matter how anyone else feels about you, it’s time for you and I to break up.
Because I’m done hating myself for spending time with you. I’m done feeling like a piece of garbage they day after we are together, with no motivation to do anything other than be with you even more. I’m done looking at myself in the mirror and seeing the effect that being with you has had on my body, even if it’s just for a weekend. I’m done with the emotional and psychological roller coaster ride you take me on when I try to deny myself of you.
Most of all, I’m done trying to blame you for my problems, because at the heart of it, it’s my fault for allowing you to get the best of me. I’m the one to blame.
So, it’s become obvious to me that the only way this is going to work is if I stay as far away from you as possible, and let the world know I don’t want to be with you any longer.
Well, here it goes…
As of January 1, 2018, I officially renounce sugar in all of its processed forms, including, but not limited to: refined white sugar, high fructose corn syrup, monosodium glutamate, anhydrous dextrose, brown sugar, corn syrup, cane crystals, cane sugar, corn sweetener, corn syrup solids, crystal dextrose, evaporated cane juice, fructose sweetener, fruit juice concentrates, malt syrup, lactose, maltose, carbitol, galactose, maltodextrin, and any other name the lab techs come up with to try to trick us into thinking something isn’t sugar, when it is.
We’ve had some good times, sugar, but it’s over.
Consider us broken up.
“Sugar’s ‘Tipping Point’ Link to Alzheimer’s Revealed”: http://neurosciencenews.com/alzheimers-glucose-neurology-6151/
“Sugar in the diet may increase risks of opioid addiction”: https://theconversation.com/sugar-in-the-diet-may-increase-risks-of-opioid-addiction-85313
“Sugar Rots Your Brain”: https://www.technologynetworks.com/neuroscience/news/sugar-rots-your-brain-285482
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